Thank fucking god I finally got some sleep. I seriously thought I was going to lose my mind earlier this week and I honestly thought I was dying.
This is actually the first time, in quite a while that I feel close to GREAT. Like not just OK, or bored, or over-it, but 100% not miserable or paralyzed with anxiety. I think that it may have something to do with the fact that my husband is taking me to Maui for nearly two weeks for our 1 year anniversary in THREE STINKIN’ DAYS; and although I am scared shitless about flying, the valium rx is all ret-to-go in case I feel a need to feel nothing. I am having a hard time choosing between the 49ers football helmet or the Jets. Speaking of the NY Jets, I can’t find my hat. I love that hat. It is my only hat. True, I am not technically a Jets fan, but Dolly gave it to me and whatever Dolly loves, I love. Please hat, COME HOME.
Anyway, despite feeling gloomy, Tuesday night was a ton of fun. In case ya missed it, I popped on cam for about an hour and to be honest, I was surprised, er, shocked rather, to see the number of visitors I had that night. It was up in the thousands, and I am not talking just 1 or 2k… how fun is that? I got quite a few emails from fans, new and old, which was really nice. I don’t know how the hell you found me but, hey, thanks for the lovey-love and the patronage. Come Again!
You know, the chat room is always entertaining so if you are a lurker, break free of the nonsense and come plop your pickle in my chat… it’s an odd place but it’s not nearly as creepy as you would imagine, so if you happen to catch my cam online, come here ,launch the chat, pick a user name (you don’t need to register) and check it out, you might make a new friend. The best part is when I check the log the next day and find that even after I left, people stuck around and chatted with one another …it is so cute to see you all becoming BFF’s. You guys rule.
Here is some of what you missed in case you where to busy whacking elsewhere… by the looks of the clips, you would never even know how SHITTY I felt that day. It was all laughs and beer and Frankzz.
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I am off to work out and then off to my once a week, one week a month, day job.
CHOW M’BOX
xoxo
Crack
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Maui!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and umm BEEEWBS!!!!
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aaaw……so sweet Collena…..to mention me above…..xxx
- About your fear to fly….It’s very strange,but since a few years I have the same. Not extreme,but still…but what’s the alternative…..swim to Mauii…ok….you could go by cruiser…..but then….remember what happened to the fucking TITANIC ! Altough there are few icebergs near Mauii i’ll guess…..anyway….take some extremely strong vodca-shots before take-off….that way it’s gonna be a dream-flight…litterally…
http://bossip.files.wordpress.com/2009/01/plane-crash-1.jpg <———- happy end !
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my lil brother is an aeronautics engineer. He repairs planes for just about every airline. He said to absolutely AVOID asian airlines. They fly without proper maintenance and the planes are very unsafe.
I have to fly in a couple of weeks and I’m a bit shaken. But I have my meds. yeah meds.
As far as anxiety goes….there’s something in the air….no .,..literally. so many people that suffered from high anxiety this last month. Dont know what the frick is going on. Some grand plan or something.
That’s pretty darn frightening to hear… and to think that I always thought airlines like Singapore Airlines and Air China were top notch. Yikes.
I have always been rather freaked about flying. Loved it when I was younger, before neurosis kicked in.
Maybe Frankzzz prediction is coming early? 12/21/12? ha! Heck, I’ve had anxiety for so long that when I don’t have it I feel abnormal. It’s a pitty that xanax and valium are so habit forming. Take those suckers two days in a row and by day 3 you will already need to double to dose to get the same effect.
What do you take? I’ve been thinking of Trazadone. Took it once and it put me to sleep for like a year. I kinda liked it.